HAVE U EXPERIENCED GOD?

HAVE YOU EVER REMAINED SILENT, 

THOUGH YOU WANTED TO DEFEND YOURSELF, 

THOUGH YOU WERE TREATED UNFAIRLY?

HAVE YOU EVER FORGIVEN, 

THOUGH YOU RECEIVED NO REWARD FOR IT 

AND PEOPLE TOOK IT FOR GRANTED?

HAVE YOU EVER OBEYED, 

NOT BECAUSE YOU HAD TO 

OR ELSE THERE WOULD BE SOME UNPLEASANTNESS,

BUT SIMPLY BECAUSE OF SOME MYSTERIOUS,

SILENT, UNFATHOMABLE REALITY INSIDE OF YOURSELF?

HAVE YOU EVER MADE A SACRIFICE, 

WITHOUT RECEIVING THANKS, WITHOUT RECOGNITION, 

WITHOUT EVEN FEELING SATISFACTION INSIDE?

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ABSOLUTELY LONELY 

AND, WITHIN THAT, 

HAD TO MAKE UP YOUR MIND TO DO SOMETHING 

PURELY FOR THE SAKE OF CONSCIENCE,

FROM A PLACE BEYOND WHERE YOU CAN DESCRIBE,

FROM A PLACE WHERE YOU ARE DEEPLY ALONE, 

AND WHERE YOU KNOW YOU ARE MAKING A DECISION 

FOR WHICH THE RESPONSIBILITY WILL BE YOURS 

ALONE, ALWAYS AND ETERNALLY?

HAVE YOU EVER TRIED TO LOVE 

WHEN NO WAVE OF ENTHUSIASM WAS CARRYING YOU ALONG, 

WHERE YOU COULD NO LONGER

CONFUSE YOUR OWN NEEDS WITH LOVE?

HAVE YOU EVER PERSEVERED 

WITHOUT BITTERNESS  IN DOING YOUR DUTY 

WHEN THAT DUTY LOOKED LIKE DEATH,

FELT LIKE IT WAS KILLING YOU, 

LOOKED STUPID TO THOSE OUTSIDE,

AND LEFT YOU HELPLESS TO NOT ENVY THOSE

WHO HAVE CHOSEN A PATH WITH MORE PLEASURE?

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN GOOD TO SOMEONE 

FROM WHOM NO ECHO OF GRATITUDE 

OR COMPREHENSION COME BACK 

AND WHERE YOU WERE'NT EVEN REWARDED WITH THE FEELING 

THAT YOU HAD BEEN GOOD AND UNSELFISH?

IF YOU'VE EVER HAD ANY OF THESE EXPERIENCES, 

THEN 

YOU'VE EXPERIENCED GOD 

AND KNOW THAT THERE'S A DEEPER GROUND 

BENEATH THE ONE ON WHICH YOU WALK.